No motivation

I'm lacking motivation to do much today. And yesterday. And Monday. I guess that means I've been lacking motivation for a while.

I seriously don't feel like doing anything I normally would love to do. I don't want to read, watch TV, blog, design, go for a walk or even, gasp! go shopping. It's strange to not want to do stuff that my kids won't let me do anyway. It's like I've given up on myself, for a lack of a better way to explain it.

I'm frustrated at the never ending mess of toys, the endless laundry and having to do the stinking dishes multiple times a day. I'm so over Macy's no longer than 10 minute naps and having to carry her around the house, never sitting down, to keep her happy. I'm sad that I can't give Parker the attention he deserves because Macy's screaming at me for sitting on the floor to play with him. I hate that the only alone time I get during the day is the 20 minutes tops I get to shower each day.

I know I've been all pity party lately and I'm sorry. I just feel really blah and I don't know what to do about it. I'm sure it's lack of sleep talking. I've been trying to get Macy to sleep through the night in her crib, and it's been hard on me having to physically get up a billion times a night with her. Maybe I need to drink a ton of caffeine or something. I don't know.

It also doesn't help that it's only 45 degrees outside right now, so we can't even go outside to play. As I'm sure you in the snowy midwest know, being cooped up in your house makes a person stir crazy.

Tomorrow will be better. Yes. Tomorrow.